Code Blue

The ring it read "unconditional love"

and I believed it was meant from God above

and then you were gone and my heart was too

stepped on, smashed up, call a code blue.

Who in the hell have you become

did you start marching to a different drum

have I been blind, I made you my queen

I know you were scared, but why so mean?

I loved you many long years with passion

yet you used me in your own bitch fashion

I never realized it came so easy for you

who is this person, just tell me who?

I refuse to accept your image of me

I am better than that, much better you see

I'm out, I'm proud, I'm brave, I'm crazy

I work hard, and I'm never lazy.

What did I have to do to be good enough

was I too broken? was I too tough?

I love you hard, and I love you well

but now I sit in this lonely hell.

An embarrassment I was, an embarrassment I'll be

I'm just trying so hard to just be me

Too much too handle, too broken to fix

will never be a cement with just the right mix.

So go, life your life and live it well

 I won't wish you pain, I won't wish you hell

but at this moment, if I see you soon,

my eyes might say, Well fuck the moon.