In Love I am Wild

I'm smashing into you 

while beholding your face

the perfection, the moment

the passion embrace.

And I melt into you

and finally feel whole

cause you saw inside of me

my innocent soul.

And in your eyes I see home

like a prodigal child

I am safe once again

and in love I am wild.

Dying hour

Dead and almost buried

a shovel in one hand

my heart covered in dirt and rock

another hurt I couldn't stand.

Did I bury it because it ceased to beat

or to protect it from the rest?

I guess it doesn't matter

there's no life now in my chest.

Yet my brain still lives in torture

as it awaits its own flatline

all the memories and possibilities

twist and snarl in my mind. 

If I could hurt more now I would

but I have no tears left to give

they dried up long ago

as my soul struggled to live.

Then in my dying hour

my last breaths coming close

I heard your voice and caught your eyes

and in that moment I swear, I froze.

It was you, my anam cara, 

twin flame, my soul's repair

my mate, my kindred spirit

my heart, my all, my air.

And you breathed life back in me

we resurrected, our own divine

we crossed all space and galaxies

we stopped the clock of time.

Then you went to the grave

dug up what I left behind

and with the tears of a lifetime

cleaned it until it shined.

And I kissed your wounds of battle

I saw you had scrapped and fought

to live just like I had

though it seemed all just for naught.

Then I took my heart, still beating

from your hand and into mine

and I broke it in half and gave it to you

my heart, my soul, entwined.

Now when we stand before the other

and quietly we listen

our hearts beat in one rhythm

and enshrined it proudly glistens.  

 

Star Dust

Let me touch your thoughts

and see inside your dreams

cause deep in your eyes

lay desires, it seems

Lay my ear on your chest

secrets never heard aloud

I can hear them whispered quietly

in this safe and sacred cloud.

Let our souls, naked bare

interlaced, intertwined

on a bed of faith and hope

that was divinely designed.

As the world falls away

and all that's left is us

I'll lift you to the heavens

and glory in star dust.

Flat line

Staring at a blank wall

inside this cell I sit

a prison of my doing

to the jail bars I submit

Then upon the wall playing

the movie of my life

the bridges I burned, so many,

too many scars, my knife.

The bittersweet memories

I should be making even still

the moment I saw her first

a healing balm, a pill

A miracle of passion

that fixed my soul, so broken

the pieces glued together

by her gaze, it was unspoken.

I don't recall unimportant things

I cast all them aside

but burned inside my brain

the moment she became my bride.

It was joy unspeakable

something I never knew

no dreamer could've imagined

the love between us two.

And as I watched my life pass by

the film continued to roll

the moment of impact

when I failed and broke her soul.

I didn't see it coming

it was suppose to last forever

we promised a lifetime day and night

but in a moment it was severed.

And when that time came

I ceased to be alive

nothing could shock me back

no miracle kept me alive

Yet I still walk the earth

my body just a shell

so alone in this cell I sit

in my own personal hell.

And it doesn't seem to matter

the how, the who, the when

my heart just stopped beating

in the year 2010.

To the Moon I say, Thank You

You were my saving grace,
I adored your space
And  your embrace
I could never replace.

You made me more
Than what I was before
You opened the door
Made me want to explore.

Suddenly I was alright
I knew more than fright
And during the night
I could see the light.

You carried my weight
My own soul mate
You didn’t berate
You helped me create.

And when it was time
 I was in my prime
No longer sublime
But I could climb.

Then you let me go
At first a big blow
But determined to show
That I too could glow.

I became so tenacious
So completely vivacious
Absolutely audacious
My heart felt so gracious

Cause now I can fly
I can touch the sky
I don’t ask why
You had to say goodbye.

It was your affection
Your loving protection
Your heart connection
Gave me a new resurrection.

AND I SAY THANK YOU.

Guess I had a Bad Day

I thought you'd never, never go away

That you'd be here, always, to stay

Thinkin' I still take your breath away

With our love, we'd always be okay.

They say that love, love conquers all

Guess that's nothin' but a bullsh*t call

Now you're gone and I feel so raw

I can't stand, but continue to crawl.

I thought I knew you, knew you so well

that if I looked in your eyes I surely could tell

when you were no longer under my spell

I feel foolish and face my hell. 

I planned on being on bended knee

to ask you again to marry me

instead I sit here quietly,

in a crowd, yet still so very lonely.

Guess that's life, let me say that it sucks

I've been hit hard with a major in flux,

The next decade was going to be deluxe

but now I find myself curled in corner tucks.

Yep, I'll make it, make it I will

but that don't mean that sometimes I won't feel

that I've been hit, hit in the grill.

But, like always, I'll find a way to chill. 

I'll be pissed, yes, and I'll be mad

and some days I know, I know I'll be sad

but I'll overcome and make my spirit glad

I'll not think of the love I once had.

Cause I've got to believe, believe in me

that I am more than somebody's throw away debris

that I am loving, and happy, and free

and I will resurrect spiritually.

Still, it hurts.

Can't Help Which Way My Heart Fell

Growing up I didn't believe
that one day I might receive
a love that many couldn't conceive
or that others would aggrieve.

No celebration came that day
from the world, no great display
it was an evil they portrayed
the day you took my heart away.

 Can't help which way my heart fell
I'm under love's sweet magic spell
Sure doesn’t feel like a sinful hell
What can I do, do tell, Oh Well
Like an old forgotten tree
Where I fell wasn’t up to me
Why can’t they just let it be
And try to be happy for me?

Heaven knows best, I know its true
Its up to God what is taboo
but he brought me to you
And made my heart feel renewed.

So if God says its right
Then for you I’ll stand and fight
If it takes all day and night
I’ll be your brave white knight.

Smashing

I'm smashing into you 

while beholding your face

the perfection, the moment

the passion embrace.

And I melt into you

and finally feel whole

cause you saw inside of me

my own boyish soul.

And in your eyes I see home

like a prodigal child

I am safe once again

and in love I am wild.

My lips touch yours

until the end of all time

for our souls interlock

as our hearts intertwine.