When I Fall on My Knees.....

When the weight of the world 

pushes me down into hell

when it hurts more than words

will ever really tell 

When I cry until the moment

all moisture is gone from me

and the exhaustion so profound

my soul has no wish to breathe.

When every last movement 

sends sharp pains through my heart

and I forgot days ago

how peaceful life was at the start

And I tripped over my life

a ways back in the night

and on my knees I  kneel

too tired to fight the fight.

What it feels like to be secure

I can't say that I recall 

but I know desperation

and the fear of it all.

So I pray and pray

in this position I was given

until there's nothing else left

but this time to be arisen.

And then I could feel it

that when God seemed unaware

he was just inside my heart

making much needed repairs.

Then I could raise up

my strength returned ten fold

for God had only shut me down

to replace new parts for the old.

"Oh Lord, you have searched me and known me; you know my down sitting and my uprising; you understand my thoughts from afar off.....where shall I go from your spirit? or where can I flee from your presence? If I ascend up into heaven, you are there: if I make my bed in hell, you are there. If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the deepest sea, even there shall your hand lead me and your right hand shall hold me."

--Psalms 139 paraphrased

Let Us Break Bread Together on Our Knees....