Lidocaine Disease

I got that lidocaine disease

that drops me straight to my knees

no feelin' if you please

heart flappin in the breeze

If i can't feel it, it don't matter

if its there, my spirit shatters

or I go crazy, mad hatter

hearin voices, chit chatter.

I got work I gotta do

pay some bills, I have to

ain't got time for a soul flu

no such thing, mental drive-thru

But I'm tired of being numb

makes life boring, hum drum

I aint stupid, I aint dumb

can't have the rich without the bum

Can't have good without the bad

can't be happy without the sad

can't subtract until you add

don't find passion until you're mad

So if I feel, will I die?

Or maybe worse, will I cry?

Will I suddenly open my eye?

See some truth, a disguised lie?

Shit, I don't know, can't see a thing

don't know what the future will bring

ain't no ruler, aint no king

just want my heart in an upswing. 

That's all.