Homesick

I miss when you were here 

or really when I was there

when dreams seemed possible

and I finally was breathing air

I was somebody

your love and your heart

then it came along and sadly

tore it all apart. 

And now when I open my eyes

every where I see you

each tear holds a memory

reflected off the morning dew.

The willows that we planted

the wall hanging that you chose

and when the wind is just right

the scent of your wild rose.

The lines on the roadway

remind me of the day

when our tire blew on the ten

to Long Beach, on our way 

 

In the warm summer breeze

the hint of a setting sun

I hear us still harmonizing

each song as if we were one.

"In the Garden" was your fave

and the angels gathered round

when you would sing and I would alto

as we sat on the ground.

Remember the ducks who always came

to see us every night?

I still look for them each day

but without you it isn't right. 

And when the deer wander down

I wonder even still

if some witnessed your beauty

as we watched them walk down the hill.

So many good times among the sun and sand

Santa Ana winds and California heat

then among the hills of Tennessee

summer grass beneath our feet.

Its been three years without you

though you live 'tween waves and desert dry

and each night I look to the heavens

to see you in the night sky.

And I ask the birds and implore the rain

that if someday they make their way west

that they check to see if you're really okay

and life is giving you the best. 

Your voice still echoes

as you sang when I was in fear

in your language so exotic

Oh, God I wish you were here. 

I've never been so empty

each moment, the time, it ticks

another moment away from you

is a moment I'm homesick.